The Pain Before The Miracle

I am blown away by the love and support that people have shown for our yet to be born twins. I feel like they are rock stars. People genuinely care about them. Like in a stalk Facebook status for updates, buy gifts, clean their room in prep for their arrival type love.

I was reflecting on why they are getting so much love and I think it's because people have been apart of the journey.

The journey involved six years of waiting. It involved doctors telling us that we couldn't get pregnant without help and then getting pregnant without any help. It involved hearing a nurse tell us that our miracle baby was dead. That was the worst moment of my life. The journey involved multiple failed fertility treatments. It involved Monica giving herself shots with a gigantor needle only to have nothing come of it. It involved paying lots of money for in-vitro fertilization. It involved our first 20 weeks of pregnancy having multiple scares. A couple of times we were convinced that we lost the twins.

Now we are potentially seconds away from having these babies. Can you dig it?!!

I wish that we didn't have to wait 6 years. I wish we didn't lose our baby to a miscarriage. I wish that we didn't have to pay a boat load of money to get pregnant. I wish we didn't have to go through so many scares after she got pregnant. I wish it was easier, but then we wouldn't be experiencing a miracle.

If people didn't go through pain they'd never experience a miracle. A miracle is more then finding a great parking spot at the mall. It's more then having your team come back to win a championship. It's even more then a brand name for a gag nasty substitute for mayo.

Coming on the other side of this miracle is amazing, but waiting for it was hard. The Bible is full of amazing miracles. Reading through the Bible it's easy to forget how hard it was for the characters before their miracle. We know how the story ends. Every time you read the story of Joseph it ends with him ruling over Egypt. Every time you read the story of Job it ends with him gaining more riches and having a new family. Every time you read the story of Mary it ends with the miracle of Jesus' birth. What we often skim over is that before Joseph ruled Egypt he was in prison. Before Job got a second family he had to live through the news of his first family dying. Before Mary had Jesus she had to think about the potential of her life being ruined because her culture would have stoned her for getting pregnant out of wedlock. It takes us seconds to read, but they lived it out in real time.

Nobody wants to go through pain, but we wouldn't experience the miracle with out it. I know that someone reading this is hurting. I know that someone reading this is holding out for a miracle. It's not easy, but on the other side of your pain is a miracle. Hold on.

I can't wait to tell my twins about how they are our miracle.