Process

I'm a pastor and most of the time I don't feel God. There are lots of times where I don't feel like reading the Bible. I have to remind myself to worship God in church and not just critique what is happening.

This past Sunday my pastor, Stu Hodges, talked about you have to experience a promise from God, then endure the process, in order to enjoy the party. For example if want to hold onto the promise of a great marriage you have to work in the process by loving your spouse, forgiving your spouse, serving your spouse etc. The party is a great marriage, but it only comes through the process. He applied this to many things like finances or raising good children.

I've been thinking about that talk all week. A promise that I hold on to comes from a verse in the Bible that says, "But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul." The promise is that we can find God if we seek Him. I've been thinking about how the process is going to church, reading the Bible, praying, serving others etc. I often don't find God in the process, but over time I see how He finds me. He changes me through the process. There are verses that He will bring to memory. Verses that I didn't even know I knew, but I must have read them through the process. The process is work and it doesn't result in instant gratification. It's through the process that I find God.